When did you realize your true gender identity?
Short answer: about six years ago. Long answer: I'm realizing it every single day, it's an ongoing struggle for me as a non-binary person in a binary world.
I have felt different about my gender for as long as I can remember. Understanding what it all means is a journey that I began with some self medicating in my thirties and lots of self loathing. This part of me (the woman) has seized control and is exploding from within. My outer male atmosphere is failing as my inner core finally breathes. I am finally in the moment of my understanding and transition with the help of good doctors was given me a chance to connect with myself and have confidence.
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